Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 Goals

I feel like I accomplished a lot in 2012 related to my physical fitness. So much healthier, physically at least.

My 2013 goals focus a lot more on my emotional/mental fitness.  They are still a work in progress, but at least a starting point. And more than goals, they are more like my own personal Happiness Project.

Additionally, I just found out today that the nagging leg pain I've been experiencing is in fact a stress fracture.  So, no more running or other strenuous legwork for 4-6 weeks for me.  Sure puts a damper on some of the goals I was contemplating for 2013.  I'll re-examine them once I'm healed though and see.  In the meantime, hopefully I can maintain my cardiovascular health.  Anyone have any tips for doing that without using your legs?

I tried to come up with twelve items with the intention of focusing on one per month, although I haven't really determined which ones are first.

In no particular order:
1) Be a better Mom
2) Breathe more energy into my life
3) Foster friendship and community
4) Improve my attitude
5) Make more time for play
6) Rediscover and nurture my passions
7) Take my professional presence to the next level
8) Focus on fitness - especially emotional & mental
9) Remember love
10) Accept myself
11) Overcome fear
12) Own my strengths - inner & outer

I'll try to expand on each of them more later as I determine specific goals and action items within them.  But it's a start anyway.

I'm very much looking forward to 2013.  I have lots of hopes and aspirations for 2013.  It is going to be a good year, I can feel it.

What are your goals for 2013?


Coming clean...

I've had another bout of no-blogging-itis.  I had a lot on my mind and was swirling about and ultimately went back and forth and just didn't prioritize blogging. 

But I think I'm back again.  Well, hopefully anyway.

I've alluded to something that's been going on in my life in quite a few posts in the past few months.  I've circled around it.  I've implied it.  But I've never actually admitted it.  I think I'm ready.

I'm getting divorced.

Yes, it's happening.  It was my decision.  My choice.  But that hasn't made it any easier to deal with.

I feel like a huge failure.  I feel awful for hurting loved ones.  I feel horrible that my daughter and my marriage is now just another statistic.  Honestly, in the short term - it completely sucks.

But I had to think of the long term.  I wasn't happy.  I wasn't reaching my potential.  I take the blame. I take the fault.

Long term I want to be happy.  And it's important to me that my daughter sees me as a strong female role model who shows her how to be happy and achieve her dreams.  That's what is important to me right now.

So please be patient with me while I try to pick up the pieces of my life.  I'm trying to do the best I can with what I have.  I'll try to blog about it when I can.  But we will see.

So, now that proverbially the elephant in the room has been talked about, perhaps I will feel like I can move on and talk more about what's going on with me and how I'm continuing to try to be a fitter mommy.

Here's wishing everyone a wonderful 2013!  Farewell to 2012!